So, the year started off alright, I've had a boost of energy to get on with my writing, but I'm starting to have blogging doubts and I'm not sure if I want to carry on with either of them at the moment.
I have this blog for the fun stuff and I have a Wordpress blog which is just for fiction stuff. I haven't been posting all that frequently and when I do it seems to be the same old stuff all the time. I try and get back into it and keep up with what others are posting, but I feel like my heart just isn't in it anymore. It's feeling more of a nuisance if I'm honest, distracting me from the writing that I'd rather be doing.
Over the past few days I've seriously thought about knocking it on the head, at least for now, and concentrating on my stories. I've got into a bad habit of not finishing anything and I've got some really good ideas that I want to spend time on and see through to the end. I'm also doing a Literature and Creative Writing degree that I don't want to suffer, put that together with two young children and working three days a week … Phew! Have I really been trying to do all that?
I swing back and forth though, one day I'll decide that's it, my life would be more straightforward without the blogging thing niggling at the back of my mind. The next day I think I shouldn't be too hard on myself, I only need to blog once a week, nobody's really keeping tabs on me. Are you? And it's a brilliant community to be a part of.
See, just by writing this post I'm feeling better about it, and wondering if maybe I can keep it up. Does anyone else get feelings like this? Do you get to the point where you think 'is there any point to this? Why should I even bother?' I'd love to read some words of encouragement, and I know you're all pretty great at that.